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First scene when winter ends
I get to thinking how everything stands still if you let it and
how ever long you wait
how ever long you want to wait
it only holds you back
watch the sun go down, watch it come back up
all the time we waste
is it ever enough to convince us that maybe theres something wrong
maybe it's me
Back to the city where
there's a buzz and a hum
that stays stuck inside my head
that never leave's unless I leave and I don't want it to
it's a comforting sound that helps me sleep at night
all the signs in the road read head north
and don't come back
i've been trying to figure this out
i've been trying to kill off this doubt
it comes in waves.
No hope
Listen, Help Me
Hold it together
Again, Realize
Nothing is easy
Unless we find,
a reason behind our own dreaming
I keep waking up feeling the same way
like nothing else is going to change
cause it's been so long and I try so hard any chance I get
But the answers are out there hiding in the silence
and it's our job to find them
like some pyramid scheme, retrace my dreams
keep waiting for my sigh of relief
It's just the coming of age I keep telling my self
it's only temporary this void feeling
the one weighs me down makes me think less of myself
but I keep looking up
hoping for better days
hoping for better things
when spring comes I can pretend
what I did before
I won't do again
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2. |
Conflict of Interest
03:05
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There's a doubt
there's a cold and broke home
it's wasting your time
There's a feeling eating you up on the inside
it's asking you to leave everything you've got
we get caught up in the details
Tomorrow in the back of my mind
Tomorrow in the end it will all work
Tomorrow this modern life has got me feeling otherwise
In the city all the leaves are changing color
but I just stay the same
why are we not changing with them
You used to stay you wanted an exit
You wanted to find help
Restore your health
but conflict of interest
led you far away from it
And all I know is that you're so uncertain
and all I know is that
I'm just as lost as you are
I think were all just lost as you are
I think were all just lost as
I think were all just lost as you are
Tomorrow in the back of my mind
Tomorrow in the end it will all work out
Tomorrow
I watch and wait for things to change back
I watch and wait to find out
what it is that keeps us from leaving here
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The Darkest Past
02:51
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Again the same frame of light that led me in
that made me think otherwise
it's gone
Every chance I get to spark a memory a match is lit to a wick
so I can see the past and remember how it ends
remember how it begins
I was only asking questions
I put my candle to the wind and it blew out
It must of been the smoke
it must of been me
that saw a change in the room
that saw a shift in your mood
that saw potential and growth
in all the places you don't
we'll film a brand new scene
and play the usual scheme
we'll keep on acting it out until we get it right
and again we'll learn from our mistakes
just do what it takes keep moving forward
to make the days a little brighter
when nothing else is
I ran as fast as I could
back to where I came from
found a photo of you and me
an image and memory captured
one where were both still smiling
it was daytime
when the frame caught the light
and everything changed
it must of been me.
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Hard Season
02:11
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The wind is colder this time of year
take a deep breath, make things easier
put your attention in one location
incompatible situations
Leave or hide
time after time
what is it that you find
yourself to be so uncertain of
Raise your voice
let it resonate
to and through the walls
don't be afraid
I learned my lesson from life
nothing is as vast and far aways as it seems
and time is always spinning around
Hold your head
even when things don't seem right
don't be afraid
I learned my lesson from life
Abandon all things not deemed worthy of your time
I changed my mind
I've never felt more alive
I guess I was tired of wasting time for no good reason
I guess I was trying to waste my time for no good reason
I suppose I just gave up on life for no good reason
I suppose I just gave up on life
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Monument
02:18
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A frequent feeling bring it back
now hold it together firmly
I'm not losing any sleep
bad weather or not
to the top of the mountain
where you can see everything a little more clear
Nothing feels worse than failure
I should have known
I should have moved
I should have been brave
Lack of fear won't save me now
from anything at all
This room sits still and stays so quiet
like the stairs up to your old apartment
filled with superstition for your addictions
don't forget your cigarettes on the way out
I'm still learning how to cope with tragedy
I'm still learning how to fight off all these feelings
I'm still learning what you have isn't always yours to keep
I know now what I didn't know before
I know now what I didn't before
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Day Dream
02:08
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Woke up from a dream
that lead me to believe
there's more on this earth
than anything you see
Sing it again
Sing it back to me
we're all just waiting on relief
cause yesterday keeps haunting me
and i'm just hoping tomorrow is better than today
and i'm just waiting for the next move to make
You're always so close to where you want to be
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7. |
In Defense of Drowning
01:40
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Captain this whole ship is sinking
right down to the bottom
where all the forces on earth to heavy to lift
too swift to sway
in a different direction
and if i could i'd take back time
reclaim a love, end my stories with light
but the clouds and the thunder bring rain
and the rain brings darkness and grey
and the entire time I was searching for a sign
but the weather never changed
and these problems keep me up late
to fear a future that stays the same
Captain this whole ship is sinking
right down to the bottom
I tried my best to let go
I tried my best
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June
02:30
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First wave, crashing in
Contemplate my beliefs
it's just these memories I wish I could get out of my head
I'll dwell on things I can't ever change
I never had a clear view on them anyways
These memories
He's twenty three just like me
the mother cried so hard at the funeral home
picking a casket for her son
she didn't think it would come in her lifetime
but it did
again again again
What makes you really hurt
What makes you do the things you do
that hurt everyone else
it leaves another mark
that won't ever watch off
that won't ever disappear
Feeling discontent
that no one knew you had
that no one could fix
it whispers in the wind
Goodbye
Every chance I get i'll find another way
to keep things off my mind
He meant, he felt it, the needle pushed deep in his skin
as deep as it goes it haunts
as long as I wait for things to change
it never cleans up the same
these broken dreams this broken life
it'll never be fixed it'll never be
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Grand Scheme
02:50
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How do you cope with all that's lost
do you put up walls just like me?
I have goals and aspirations
leading me to better places away from here
i'm hardly waiting around for any options
settle in your new apartment by the beach
where you're suppose to be happy
the smell of smoke on your old clothes
your flannel is torn and faded
but you like the way they made it
you're hardly waiting around for options
but I am calm about it all
Try to keep my composure
till this storm blows over and over
It's still hard to say I get all of my traits from you
It's still hard to say I get all of my traits from you
I get all of my traits from you
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I had a feeling than lost it a sense of meaning exhausted
my eyes are tired from trying to find an answer anywhere
and I keep caring less and less
and I keep thinking less and less
about the future and purpose
reason is
I am frequently alone
I am frequently passing by
all the places I visit
always wondering why
there's no light on in your room
there's no place to feel warm
and all these cold walls only cause me harm
It's only freezing and it is painful
It's only freezing
I just want to have comfort in the things that I do
I just want to know more of me and you
I just want to see the end and where everything goes
Will I ever find out does anybody know?
I keep losing faith in everything
I keep dreaming of a place I'd much rather be
and when the sunsets all I fear is regret
so I am cautious to make any decisions
I take careful steps in and around the house
Where everything stays quiet nothing moves
and I look out the window
hoping for a sign to change my mind
I'm so full of doubt these days
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